Family Man (Part 1)
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There are times when I look at Hailie
and piendo so like me. Although
my ears have not, thank God.
When I was a kid, my ears were
very large. I dealt with nicknames
as "Mickey." as the mouse.
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Being a parent makes me feel powerful, in a way I did not know before, and this is the kind of power which does not want to impose. It's the kind of power that helps me overcome my childhood away. It's like if I were to write my own story.
In my life I have a daughter, Hailie, niece, Alaina and another little girl, Whitney, who is not biologically mine.All three call me Daddy (Daddy). All are loved in the same way and treated equally. Because of my success, I have been able to give them what my family could never give me. Rapping is like taking control of my life and now the life of my girls. I can only imagine how I would have helped me as a young man, the things that I could offer them.
I try to explain how lucky we are for simple things like going to school by car, but I think it will be sometime before they understand where I came from and what Dad has done for them. I've seen both sides of the road, the suburbs and the city. If it was a community of white or black or mixed in which I lived. I was always poor. Forever.
I want my girls to have a place where they belong and feel protected. That's why I say that my greatest achievement is being a dad and so I stepped back in the rap game for a minute. You can not just Apparate occasionally and call yourself Father. Further back when I was touring all the time, the summer tours were my favorite because I could bring girls with me. Kim also brought and simply worked. In the past, if I had to be away from them for a while, came to the point that I miss them both back. I had a day off and went on a private plane to the house, to see them for a day, and the next day I returned to catch up with the tour at the last minute.
I have not been on tour since 2005 but I still bust your ass. I told one of my daughters, "Dad works very hard because I want you to live like I had to live." You try to explain these things to a child 12 or 15 years and they'll respond, "Well, why should we live like this?" hurts a little to hear that. But they do not understand. It's just a phase they're going through.
I want to go to college. I try to instill educational values. But this can be difficult when you graduated from high school and your education level is 8th grade. I lost three times the grade 9 and try to argue with them about going to college?! I try to explain that Daddy made a bad decision to leave school. Just got lucky. I really won the lottery. I know that talent plays a role in this, but there are many talented people out there. If it was not for Dre giving me that opportunity and if I had not had people in my life as Proof that pushed me, we'd be in a trailer somewhere.
"The worst part about the way I grew up was that I never had a real home."
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This is the only picture of my father that my mother
has had from when I was a kid.
showed it to me when we lived in Dresden
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I was always bouncing from school to school, and moving damaged my interest in education. I went to two different preschools in Missouri. One was in a trailer park, where each class had a trailer. I'll never forget: my Aunt Edna took me to school when I was five and she was like 60.Anyone who has heard my music and know the story of my childhood. In "Evil Deeds" talk about how going from door to door, "Father, please forgive me for not knowing what I do, just never had the opportunity to meet you." Obviously, it's an exaggeration.The lyrics are a metaphor for how I felt.Then I say, "Until someone finally took me, my aunt and uncle, Edna and Charles."That part is very true. Charles was the uncle of my father, who fought in World War II, and was his wife Edna. They were my salvation. It started when my parents divorced, I stayed with them fairly.
His home was a safe haven for me, a place where I could sit on the floor in front of the TV and do things like coloring. My Uncle Charles died 15 years ago, and Edna lives alone.Now 94. She is proud, man, it will not accept anything from me when it comes to money, and I want to help so much. If I try to send money, she sends it back with a letter saying, "Brucie, I'm gonna kick your ass." I talk to her regularly. He does not want anything except a conversation. This is one reason why the want both. His love is sincere.
I will not lie: I'll always have questions about my dad. But at this point, I have decided that I will never get an answer then to hell with this. Fuck him. I'am beyond wanting to meet this guy. It must be a very special bastard abandon a child. To keep in touch with other family members, like his uncle, but even on the phone talking to a child who has not done anything wrong. There is simply no excuse as a parent to do what he did. I do not care if you were lost in Alaska or in the fucking desert somewhere, I'd go look for my small.
From the book The Way I Am Chapter 7, Family Man , pp, 137-151
The Way I Am by Sacha Jenkins by Marshall B. Mathers III, 2008, Publisher: Penguin Books Ltd
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Eight Miles: The Victim Wins (Part 2)
For a while the script was rated "Untitled Detroit Project." I was the one who had the idea to call it 8 Mile. The director, Curtis Hanson and I had arguments about this. (This is a friendly argument.) He said he had thought the title. My opinion was: Curtis, no offense, but you live in LA, and did not even know what it was until 8 Mile came to Detroit and showed you around.
Both sides of 8 Mile Road are poor, but there is a definite dividing line between the white side and the black side. And there is where the name of the movie. That barrier we face.
The study did not want to, but I insisted that was filmed in Detroit, and that's where I recorded many videos and stuff. If I can help in some way to create jobs there, do whatever. Detroit has been in a financial shit for long .
It was great to be home, but still filming 8 Mile was very heavy. I had a trailer where he spent time with my daughters. So when it came time to go into action again, the nurse came in to take over. I made sure the girls were coloring books, crayons, and they wanted to keep them entertained while I went. After the trailer was going to study and prepare some letters-he sat writing "Lose Yourself" and "8 Mile" while filming scenes and took care of my children. entire time, when there was rehearsing my lines, was writing letters. I held a pen in my hand and I got to the point where you say "Action!"and had to pass the pen to someone before it will roll scene. This film took me back to where I was not known by anyone, it's like I stripped of my ego. I had to capture that, back to that.
"The scenes of rap battles were intense. Indeed, filming them felt like being in a club."
I was having serious flashbacks . When I used to go to these rap battles with other MCs, was never really thinking about theater. But looking back, rap battles were always visual. If your finalizas a rap telling your opponent that is rubbish, then you have to take a garbage bag and throw it over.People use all sorts of things in the battles to put life into the lyrics. The rap battles can be very physical-waving your arms to match your flow and all that shit, when you're in front of someone's face. It's like being a conductor, the orchestra only these directing your own ass.
Paul and I were involved in the choice of the basis for the battles. I was firm on the instrumental use of Mobb Deep "Shook Ones Pt.2." That was the issue in '95, so it was perfect for the period in which the film was. Music was crucial. This helped keep the authenticity of everything. I was able to use the strength that had developed in the battles, but also could demonstrate some control that an actor needs to make the paper is credible. I think you all believe me! (1)
"It was a straight dramatic performance as it was more like a challenge."
Sometimes I said, "Curtis, I would not say this," and he said, "You are not you in this movie. Already Jimmy Smith, Jr." Yes, ok, but the material was so parallel to my life that I felt I really knew things. We talked about the character and I in the third person: "I do not think Jimmy Smith, Jr. would say this. Do not think he would do this." And: "Marshall definitely would not say that." I told Curtis if he could make a fashion line as I say, and let me do it. However, I think that none of it was used in the movie. I realized that Curtis and I just had to trust each other. He had to trust me on the music and rap in the movie, and I had to trust him in the acting and directing. In that story, I was a student. And I was there to learn.
Some scenes were recorded easier than others.The sex scene took about a minute and a half for the movie. was not amused basically be naked in front of other men and women who do not know, but luckily I have little problem in showing my ass to the world. I'm Dirk Diggler of hip-hop. After some scenes that had just taken a long time. The driving scenes during the night were endless. The window had to be down for the camera might have a close up of my face, and I had to be driving in the wind in the winter, in the dark, nothing great.
The scene of the burning house caused some drama in Detroit. Some people protested.When I was growing up, there was this thing called Devil's Night (Night of the Demon), which used to happen on the night before Halloween. Basically, the kids burned the abandoned houses, which were easier to find in my hometown. The city of Detroit finally took action, but Devil's Night kept showing during the recording of 8 Mile, so it had to be part of the film. What we were trying to represent the scene was something that most of us might refer to: all do stupid things when we were kids, and those kids out there no more fucking. In the scene I pick a picture-proof that a family once lived in that house.The scene shows how poverty can be awful and points to the positive message of the film: that no matter where you come, if you come from the north side or the south side of 8 Mile, you can get out if your mind and your energy are correct. Out there is the point of the film.
Also had many weird shit in 8 Mile. I fought tooth and nail (and won) for this scene with the horse was not in the damn movie because it was pointless. Jimmy has a fight with his mother and sister takes her nanny where the house next door, and then he sits down and begins to mourn, only thinking about his life and what it is to be all fucked. But then he turns around and found this-ve-a horse. As such the police horses walk around town. He sees this horse in a scrap tank and do not know why it's there. He walks over and begins to stroke. Now, there's something about the horses on the way they throw their head back, shaking his head in all directions. Curtis told me to grab the reins and caress. But the horse did this crazy nod, and I thought, "At any time this horse lifts his head and will give me blow my fucking jaw." The horses and I do not get along very well. I would fuck with a horse. If a horse gets to me disrespect (Eminem diss refers to a part of a horse), I would not say anything. This was definitely a transition rarely successful, the explosion after 8 Mile. Before the film was released, I was not defensive about my success. Sure, the white guy has sold millions, but I was good at all. But I did not know that about the film murmulleos were to extend both. You start to realize that parents are bringing their teenagers to your shows. I thought, "What the fuck is going on?" was very mad after 8 Mile. Interscope said that the age range of my fans was all that way to people what s the late 60's and 70's prinpicios'-which made no sense to me. I mean, I like you and likes your grandparents? 's weird, you know, new fans and where did they come. The 'old' fans know what time is this, know about my history and my personal relationships with the history of hip-hop. For everyone else, if you loved the movie, and from there started to love my music, and you have 86 years old, I just want to thank them. Hailie grateful. Your college is already paid.
"How I started underground artist, I never wanted to sell,"
but I'm sure there are fans who believe that I have to. To them I say, "I love you still." I did not feel music that sold me. I pop ensembles, yes, but my lyrics, my flow rate and the command was always pure hip-hop to the end. I was doing the same. The only difference was that a lot of people was watching me and supporting my art. I hope you all understand that I can not control who likes my music or who like me. Seriously, if I make another film, the challenge will be if I can do a role that has nothing to do with the real self . When you think of a good actor like Denzel Washington, who is probably my favorite actor of all time, you know that Denzel is serious. If he gets in a paper gangster or a cop, you forget you're watching a movie. The challenge for me is to be able to present the kind of range that has someone seriously as Denzel. He is an inspiration. If I do something I have to be the best. I need to be super competitive. Respected. ___________ (1) Proof and I used to go to St. Andrew all the time to introduce ourselves. This is one of the places where we had our beginning. The battle scenes in 8 Mile were filmed on a set that was designed after the basement, which is called The Shelter.
From the book The Way I Am, Chapter 5, Eight Mile , pp, 104-119 The Way I Am by Sacha Jenkins by Marshall B. Mathers III, 2008, Publisher: Penguin Books Ltd
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Ross Halfin 2002 Photoshoot
The small photo story Eminem in particular poses a walk while online.
Em was supposed to be lifted to the MTV Awards in Barcelona, but had a hangover that would not let him move.
"They dragged me to the hotel room and the first shot I had of him was naked. Finally pulled the sheet off the bed and lay on the floor wrapped in a sheet with eye shadow, such as those get on a plane, because he was very sick. I like it because it looks like Christ on the Shroud of Turin.
I originally wanted to use them for the tour poster. Eminem has a good sense of humor, but the people working with him it would show no. They said it was 'very gay'. I wanted to use it with a sign that said 'Bigger Than Jesus "
Ross Halfin
'D12 TourStory' A History of the Group D12
Published on January 8 Kuniva Twitter:
"This is comedy, not drama. Anger Management Tour. Em has been giving a speech on" How to sing a refrain "for a few days.'s Speech he is saying how its chorus is the most beautiful and slayer of the earth just saying shit. Sometimes he stood on chairs to give his speech.
Anyway, this was becoming tiresome, so we started a plan. During the time that Marshall was extra sensitive about boy bands N'Sync and. He hated being compared to that kind of product. He saw himself as an MC and not a person who should be compared to those bands by their attraction to the masses. So we knew that was his weakness. We decided to fuck.
The first thing we did was go to the store when we left the hotel and buy a teen magazine. We found a magazine with N'sync and took her to the hotel to start the plan.First please note that N'sync was in our hotel. Then we started our mission. Someone writes a note to Em saying "If you are looking a fight, come to room 234." Then we hit a photo of a member of N'Sync to note. We started talking shit to Em, including tour manager was in on the joke.
Now we began to goad: "He's down!, Are you scared?" Then we did the voices of conscience: "Em, not worth it. You're more than that." He is now more excited. Finally he says, "Fuck!'m Going down." We all started to walk with him. He was angry, and talking shit! "I can not believe this motherfucker I wrote this shit. Shit I'm doing". Is leading the team of D12, all bound not explode with laughter as we walked into the room for the "fight."
Em comes to the door and knocks like crazy. "Boom! Boom". Start kicking the door! We say "Quiet", but he was furious!. We did not know if we were getting out of hand, but it was too late. We're here.
Someone behind the door says "Who is!?". Em says "Open the fucking door, bitch Let's do it!". Then the door bursts open! Em goes flying behind him and us! And then ... Proof jumps out of nowhere, hidden inside the room, and throws it to the floor!. Em does not realize that Proof was waiting in the room. Not even recognized until Proof starts laughing and shouting "me, Em". Em stops, and looks. Then he started laughing after about 10 seconds! "
It's just one of the many jokes # BigProof. I summarized, but it was memorable. That's it.
Eight Miles: The Victim Wins (Part 1)
Since the launch of The Marshall Mathers LP, I wanted to make a film showing how I emerged, something based on that part of my life. I always believed that many children would relate to my story, the story of the victim.
In 2000, people offered me roles in films, films came with offers and stuff. I knew I wanted to do that at some point, but I wanted to stay focused on the music for the moment and make movies later. I was worried thinking about making a movie: I felt that this was going to affect my recording studio pulling me - that is where I really want to be. And what if you take all this time to make a movie and then this fails?
What kept me interested was that I knew I wanted to do something real, and something that had a reason, not just tell a story.
After Jimmy Iovine planned a meeting with this guy Brian Grazer, who ended up being one of the producers of my movie. The first time we met I sat there and felt out of the loop. Brian said he had seen me on MTV - "EM TV" in particular was a special business which I took for a moment and was all over the net. Said there made me want to work on something with me. He saw that it had potential as an actor. Then he started to ask me about my music, and how much of this came from the reality of my life. I realized he wanted to do something real, something I came to me and other guys like me. After the meeting ended, and we said we would get a writer, we would work on some ideas and go from there.
When the first version of the script, I remember that I thought was so close to that period of my life, it was crazy. I knew this was the story I wanted to do. It took a while to finally start reading it - because I hate reading. I mean, if there are no pictures in a book, forget it. The only book I remember reading at the time was that of LL Cool J, and that was when I had so many plans. (If you're a fan of LL, and want to know something really personal about him, is a very good fucking book.) Anyway, after I started reading the script and managed to pass the first three, four, five pages, I was really into it. I called Paul and said "let's do it." Proof and I sat with the script writer, Scott Silver, and you have a lot of crazy stories. We told him we used to fight, we told him about the clubs where we used to go, and the script began to take shape more and more.
Sure, I worried about the performance. That was not my world. But Ice Cube gave me some art sometime. I said no to rap 'should be able to act. And that does not mean that what we rapeamos is false, but for example, if you have a song where you're really angry, and you're pronouncing the letter, and then for some reason you have to re-do some lines, you have to put that same attack again. It has to fit in with what you've already recorded, in terms of intensity. And this is just acting in a movie. Or if something you're acting, something you've experienced in real life, you have to recreate that experience in a credible way.
Your first time acting, some things can be uncomfortable. I really do not know the actors that are working, and suddenly you have to act like you are very angry about something for the movie. You think "angry" and get angry, and then, ok, now you have to push this guy and he has to push back. Before we started shooting, I worked with an acting coach for a couple of sessions. The easiest way to describe my training "theater" is: I was taught to say the same thing in many different ways. Simple, but it really worked.
Furthermore much of this paper was very close to me as a person and felt natural. I'm not trying to be egotistical, but somehow I thought, I have. It's not like someone asks me to do the role of a cop - you know, someone completely different than me. In the movie, I played a boy named Jimmy who grew up in Detroit and is trying to be a rapper, and everything is done in '95 - when I was in Detroit trying to be a rapper.This really took me back to the days before he became famous.
Excerpted from The Way I Am, Chapter 5, Eight Mile , pp, 104-119
The Way I Am by Sacha Jenkins by Marshall B. Mathers III, 2008, Publisher: Penguin Books Ltd
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Photo Gallery: Bad Meets Evil, June 1998
- Eminem and Royce at Taco Bell. Burbank, CA
- Eminem in the studio writing. Burbank, CA
- Eminem plays dead in a flat in 7-Eleven. Burbank, CA
- Eminem in "that same damn Nike hat" (see lyrics If I Had ) mixing "My Fault". Burbank, CA
- Eminem on his way to the studio. Burbank, CA
- Eminem mixing "As The World Turns." Burbank, CA
- Royce in the corporate department of Eminem. Burbank, CA
- Royce poses with painkillers that got in the south of the border in his room extremely messy Eminem's apartment. Burbank, CA
- Royce in a moment of reflection on the balcony of the apartment Eminem. Burbank, CA
Photo by: Noah Callahan-Bever
Royce Speaks About Bad Meets Evil
According to Royce Da 5'9 "and Em when he began to record their next EP of Bad Meets Evil, all they had in mind was the creation of hip-hop strong.
"When Em and I started working again-he's not going anywhere, so we work in the studio," says Royce. "And we started recording, but only did it because we were both in the studio and we had free time."
Recording casual resulted in a little hot , Royce said . much heat , in fact, that Shady Records decided to release an EP instead of letting the songs there.
Nickel Nine and Em were first united to form Bad Meets Evil more than a decade, releasing songs like "Nothin 'to Do," "Scary Movies" and "I'm King" in Game Recordings in 1999. The pair had a falling out, but reconciled used. In January, it was announced that Eminem had signed Royce rap quartet, Slaughterhouse, to his Shady Records label. The duo returned in 2011 with the song "Fast Lane" which is the 1st single from his EP titled "Hell: The Sequel".
"For me, Eminem is one of the best rappers that has existed " said Royce . When Royce has the chance to be there with him Em and create, "S ent that is good for me because I feel like I give a push, comes over me. "
Finally Royce says that with Bad Meets Evil, there is no pressure to make hits. "We realmente11 topics, two of them leaked, so let's use the other nine and that was it." "It was not that we did 15 records and we tried to choose the best. We did an album by Eminem that he was under the same pressure to sell which normally sells.'re Not really thinking about that."
"We just wanted to make an album of hip hop stronger it gets a bigger stage," Royce said. "I think that's what has been lost in hip-hop."
Source: MtvNews
SUNDAY, JUNE 19, 2011
'The Eminem Show' Officially Certified "Diamond"
The fourth studio album from Eminem, The Eminem Show has been officially certified as "Diamond " by the RIAA . This album is his first LPto cross the barrier of 10 million in the United States. " The Eminem Show " was the first albumby Eminem, which is mainly produced by himself ,and was the first Eminem album to be releasedon Shady Records / Aftermath.
The Eminem Show spawned two top-ten singles and four top-fifteen with "Without Me", "Cleanin 'Out My Closet", "Sing For The Moment" and "Superman," which made it to the ten first video without a counterpart. Moreover, "My Dad's Gone Crazy", "Business", "Hailie's Song" and "White America" were selected to be borne given.
Source: AftermathMusic
XXL Magazine Cover
SUNDAY, JANUARY 9, 2011
Eminem Speaks On Grammy Nominations
Eminem reacts to his Grammy nominations, and explains that the three songs that leaked are mostly the product of a trip to Hawaii in 2009 with Dr. Dre.
Em's album "Recovery" is currently ranked as the seventh album from the Hot 200 in Billboard magazine, and lasted 27 weeks on the chart. Recovery is one of three Em albums that take up space on the Hot 200, as double platinum Relapse (184) and Curtain Call: The Hits (155) also continue to be listed. Eminem has gone on record many times explaining that he was dissatisfied with the direction taken Relapse, even to point it out in "Not Afraid". In a recent interview with Billboard, Em says that material made between 2007 and 2010, which presumably would include topics such as recently leaked "Syllables," "Cocaine" and "Difficult."
"I recorded about 15 songs," Eminem told Billboard, recounting a trip to Hawaii in 2009 with Dr. Dre. "And I think the second half of them, probably about the last three or four were like," Ok, I'm starting to get back to normal again. This feels more like me now. "
Recovery has worldwide sales of over 5.6 million, the album has been a major success, being nominated in four Grammy categories.
"Obviously I'm happy with the way people have received the album," Em said. "As for what I have achieved with it, do not know.'m Happy to be here.'m Happy to have a career as long as I've had."
Source: Thisis50
Eminem and Lil 'Wayne on SNL (Photos)
Some screenshots of the presentation:
SUNDAY, JANUARY 9, 2011
Eminem with 10 nominations at the Grammy Awards 2011
Eminem is in 10 categories from the Grammy Awards 2011. The ceremony will take place at the Staples Center in Los Angeles on February 13 at 8 pm ET / PT on CBS. The awards were announced during the CBS concert at the Nokia Theatre in Los Angeles.Eminem is nominated in the following categories: Song of the Year 'Beg, Steal or Borrow' - Ray LaMontagne 'Forget You' - Cee-Lo 'The House That Built Me' - Miranda Lambert 'Love the Way You Lie' - Eminem Feat Rihanna 'Need You Now' - Lady Antebellum 'Need You Now' - Lady Antebellum Album of the Year 'The Suburbs' - Arcade Fire 'Recovery' - Eminem 'Need You Now' - Lady Antebellum 'The Fame Monster' - Lady Gaga 'Teenage Dream '- Katy Perry Record Of The Year 'Nothing on You' - BoB Feat Bruno Mars 'Love the Way You Lie' - Eminem Feat Rihanna 'Forget You' - Cee-Lo 'Empire State of Mind - Jay-Z Feat Alicia Keys 'Need You Now' - Lady Antebellum Best Pop Collaboration with Vocals 'Airplanes, Part II' - BoB, Eminem & Hayley Williams 'Imagine' - Herbie Hancock, Pink, India.Arie, Seal, Konono No 1, Jeff Beck & Oumou Sangare 'If it Was not for Bad' - Elton John & Leon Russell 'Telephone' - Lady Gaga & Beyoncé 'California Gurls' - Katy Perry & Snoop Dogg Best Rap Song'Empire State Of Mind - Jay-Z & Alicia Keys 'Love the Way You Lie "- Eminem & Rihanna 'Not Afraid - Eminem 'Nothin' On You "- BoB & Bruno Mars 'On To The Next One' - Jay-Z & Swizz Beatz Best Rap Album 'The Adventures of Bobby Ray '- BoB'Thank Me Later' - Drake 'Recovery' - Eminem 'The Blueprint 3' - Jay-Z 'How I Got Over' - The Roots BEST COLLABORATION OF RAP / SUNG 'Nothin' On You "- BoB & Bruno Mars "Deuces" - Chris Brown, Tyga & Kevin McCall "Love The Way You Lie" - Eminem & Rihanna "Empire State of Mind '- Jay-Z & Alicia Keys "Wake Up! Everybody "- John Legend, The Roots, Melanie Fiona & Common BEST SHORT FORM VIDEO OF'Is not No Grave / The Johnny Cash Project "- Johnny Cash "Love The Way You Lie" - Eminem & Rihanna "Stylo" - Gorillaz Mos Def & Bobby Womack 'F *** You' - Cee Lo Green 'Bad Romance' - Lady Gaga Source: http://www.grammy
Dr.Dre trying to finish "Detox" with Eminem in Detroit
Dre talks to XXL magazine about trying to complete Detox with Em and take risks in his career.
About a decade ago that we first heard about Detox, but they are seeing progress. Andre "Dr. Dre" Young has released a solo single, "Kush", complete with a video.Shortly after "Kush" leaked another song called "I Need A Doctor" with Eminem was also leaked. In your next interview in XXL magazine, Dre revealed that he spent time in Detroit with Em trying to finish the album.
" Yes , that's the only reason I'm here " Dre said when asked if it was true that Detox was coming soon . " 'm here in Detroit , working with Emon the project . 've been here for about two months and half . Yes , that's it. 'm trying todo. 'm really feeling it . My energy has returned and has been with this work , strugglingto do it out of obligation , rather than do it because really sorry . My feelings for him havebeen going up and bottom . now I'm in that place where I'm really feeling , and is goingwell . 's like , Yeah, I'm excited about it . "
Dre went on to his protege caucasian, risk and sign him to a white MC. "Yes, throughout my career, I have always tried to take some risks. Even at the beginning, with" Fuck Tha Police. "I always tried to take some risks, and as to how it goes Em, I always felt that no one can deny that it is good. I feel like if I had not met Em or we had not joined, eventually he would become a hit anyway. because he's so talented. was just lucky enough to know him first and open the door for him. Regarding the race, when I heard Em for the first time, I did not even know he was white. just knew I wanted to work with him. And such events were better for me, because it was very different. As creative and innovative, nothing can beat that, and that's all I saw. was something new and creative that sounded different and looked different, and we got along well. had fun doing the recordings in the early days, and still. still have the same energy we had the first day we went to the studio. And we still have that level of passion for it. "
Source: HipHopDX
December 14, 2010
SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 7, 2010
Introduction 'The Way I Am "by Marshall Mathers Translated
I can not even go back to that place where I was when I heard what had happened to Proof. I had never felt so much pain in my life. This is a pain that is with me still. A pain that has become part of who I am. I got my car at 7:00 AM to see Proof in the hospital, he was lying there. It was the worst day of my life. Just remember thinking, NOT A PROOF, NOT PROOF, NOT PROOF. Proof was like my rock. I had deaths in my family before, two of my uncles committed suicide, and it then took the pieces of my life.Everyone has lost someone that meant everything to them. It was at that club where Proof was shot, but I gather that the incident was a complete misunderstanding that got out of control. I try to stay away from places like that, but Proof was a normal guy. He went out to the neighborhood even after his success and that kind of success in any area, it can cause problems with jealousy. I wish the fight had ended only with his fists.But worse was impacted and Proof.
Proof had a very strong personality. It was one of those who back away. If you you pressed the wrong button, something went from him. Still, it was a fun guy, who was not gangsta ALL the time. He had his silly side, as all of us in D12. So although Proof had this double personality, what I remember most is his kindness. This is the guy who, when I was ill, came to my house and had to get rid of moccasins that my mom had bought me. We were both size 10. And I came again, "What the fuck you on your feet?" Then he gave a pair of Nikes that were very new. This is one of those moments where I wanted to mourn. Just like all friends do, Proof and I went through good and bad phases. On the way we spent great time together, and when we returned to Detroit, we took the time off.Because, you know, I can be a damn nuisance as well as worldwide. If not seen him for a while, at least talked on the phone a couple of weeks. We become a parent, too, and everyone was busy with their children.
After his death, was a year later that I could really do anything normally again. It was hard for me even to go to sleep, and had days when I could not walk, let alone write a rhyme. When I tried to put my thoughts together-well, I did not have much sense when he spoke, so everyone tried to stay away from the TV and the press. My brain was scattered, especially the first few months after his death. Only been two years and change since he left, so I have yet to deal with this. Now when I think of touring, I think of the person who will be with me on stage. This is the greatest tragedy imaginable, outside something happens to my children.
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Proof guy played the video for "Like Toy Soldiers". He was shot and went to the hospital.At the point I wanted to go with this video is that rappers get into trouble, but they are really opposing camps. It ends up being hurt. Not long after that, unfortunately became reality. In the year after his death, I was looking at the ceiling and thinking about that video. Karma did that happen in real life? You always want to point the finger at someone else when something like this happens. Proof was the key to my game. He was the only reason I stopped getting into trouble. I do not know if people realize this, that's why I'm telling you now. He did not give a damn if they called Uncle Tom for being there with me.He got by me as if we were literally brothers.
Before I was famous, before I do anything, really, Kim and I were living in the attic of his mother, because we had no where else to go. If I had not pulled Proof there, if I had not been to the store of Hip Ho, and the rap game, I do not know where I'd be. Surely someone would not have listened. He was a brilliant cat who saw in me things that I had not seen yet, and I guess I was smart enough to understand that he was the guy who somehow managed to save my life. I was drowning for long. Proof was like a life raft of hip hop and a true brother from another mother. He had that ability to not only feed my talent, but also see that diamond in the rough when a million people could be seeing the same thing and just did not see it.
Not that Proof did not have much of his own talents to work. Proof was a type of hip hop that nobody could fuck. Improvising, stick it, nobody could fuck with him. Nobody. He used to come with us to the radio-The Friday night was open mic in Detroit. This was when I was with my first group, called Bassmint Productions. We had a song that rapeabamos outdoor Proof and Proof had not learned his verse of heart yet. Just remember his first four lines, and then just started to improvise. You could even say that I had ruined because he was very good at this. That was the gift that God gave Proof, being able to improvise well. Proof completely controlled the rap scene in Motor City (Detroit) to mid 90's. Was that guy with dreadlocks from Detroit who knew everybody.And everyone swore that he would be the first rapper really only going to make it out of Detroit.
I remember seeing Vinnie and Treach of Naughty by Nature group at his funeral. I thank you for coming, but then I realize, Wow, why thank you? They were there for him, not for me. So like everyone else. I saw it as this was my best friend, so everyone was there to support me in my loss. But he obviously has its own deep connections and relationships.People like him, loved him. So I lost my best friend, but I guarantee you there were millions of people who would say, "Yeah, well, Proof was my best friend too." But with Proof and I, was a mutual feeling. That's why I say, "He was my best friend and I was his best friend."
From the book The Way I Am
The Way I Am by Sacha Jenkins by Marshall B. Mathers III, 2008, Publisher: Penguin Books Ltd
SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 12, 2010
